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What I miss when the kids are home

What I miss when the kids are home

on Jul 24, 2015

I’ve figured out what is so difficult about these fleeting moments of summer vacation with college kids at home: I miss them. The kids, I mean.

No mother should be surprised to see very little of her grown children when they come home for summers and holidays. We learn this quickly the hard way. Our budding adults want to see friends and to try out their new independence on their old playgrounds. I get it.

But I was surprised to find it’s more than that: I actually miss them MORE when they are here than when they are away.

My two daughters are home for what probably will be their last summer. One a sophomore in college, one just graduated from college, they both are building lives in other cities. So knowing how final these few weeks will be, I fantasized we would spend this summer with mother/daughter outings by day, and curled up watching Will & Grace marathons by night. But, I knew better. I knew it would be a frustrating, bittersweet final stage of my children slipping away.

No, I have never missed my girls so much as I do when they are adults under my roof. It’s because of what they remind me of:

They remind me how much I miss them.
When my daughters are off at school, I know I miss them, but I forget just what that means. I forget how their energy brings our quiet house to life. I forget how their voices calling to one another from their bedrooms is the sweetest sound God ever created, even when they’re arguing. I forget the girl-frenzy . . . the frantic rushing to get out the door, running to one another’s rooms for clothes and makeup, looking for misplaced car keys. I forget how they gang up on their father and me, and how their clothes take over the laundry room, even though curiously, no laundry is ever done.

When they are home for these brief stints, they remind me what I’ve missed and what I am soon to miss again.

They remind me of who they used to be.
When my girls are at home, the house they grew up in is a walk down memory lane.
It’s another curious sense of loss. When these independent women are living under my roof, I also miss my 3-year-old daughters, and my 10 year-olds and, to my surprise, my teenagers. When they are home, it all washes back over me: every summer vacation, every backyard play, every wretched piano recital. Whoosh. It’s all there again.

As I think about them leaving for good in a few short weeks, I don’t see two grown women going in and out of my house, I see a ten-year-old who could never turn the lights out. I see an eight-year-old doing cartwheels at sunset, and a fifteen-year-old trying out for her first high school school play. Oh, how these women in my house make me miss all those little girls.

Yes, summers with college kids home can be rough new territory made of elastic boundries and worthless curfews, but they are also made of ghosts and glitter and fairy dust – illusions that trick us into thinking it’s not really over.

And finally . . .

They remind me who I was as a mom.
I liked the person I was when my children were my whole life. My focus was certain. I was led by my heart. I was patient. I was, at times, truly selfless. Sure, I made more than my share of missteps, but I was a pretty good at parenting, and I miss feeling so surefooted.

When they are off at college, my daughters’ absence makes me forget how it felt to be so clear about boundries and so unwavering in my compassion. I forget how kind and patient I can be when I am someone’s first love and last resort.

Cue the violins. I know how I sound.

So I work to remember I am still that person, and that my children’s little touchdowns are sweet reminders of that very best part of me.

Sometimes missing my children while they are still here may seem like backsliding in all the work I’ve done to deal with my empty nest sorrow. But, somehow, it is all as it should be. Maybe it just takes a few summers to fully accept that this nest was merely their starting place . . . and that the next best parts of their lives, by design, will happen out of my sight.

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  1. I agree. I have recently spent time with my “grown” child. Afterwards I had a couple of sleepless nights just missing my son and reminiscing. A parent spends every moment, from the time they first find out they are expecting a baby, thinking of and protecting their child. Then, one day your child is “grown and flown” and out in the world. Its tough. We love and miss our babies… no matter how old they get.


    August 15, 2015

  2. I feel the same way! I love my young women, and miss my little girls.


    July 27, 2015

  3. I can relate to it 100%! As parent of adult children we need to learn that whatever time they give us is a blessing. Sure you can argue and demand more, but it will only shorten those nice moments when we can enjoy each other’s company. You know, like generations before they will come back when they have their own children.

    Yvonne Jasinski

    July 26, 2015

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